September 19th our boys will celebrate their third birthday in Heaven. Third. Three years since I've held them, kissed them... three years since I've said goodbye. 😔 It's hard to believe it's been that long and I'd give anything to go back in time just to sneak in some more quality time with them in my arms. But until I can see their beautiful faces again, I'll keep pressing forward and keep their story alive. These boys have a big purpose here on Earth and I'm just following my gut on what it is I think I'm called to do - Spread Hope in the hopeless seasons, God's Love through the storm & Joy within mourning. Pictured is a sneak peek of what's coming to our new online store in September. This year I'm gifting our boys the gift of giving back - giving Love. In September I'll be hitting PUBLISH on Boxes of Love and I'll continue my mission to love on mothers who know the pain in my heart all too well. I cannot believe it's all coming together and almost ready for the world to see but I can assure you my heart and soul has been poured into this store because she matters. Her grief matters. Her baby matters. Love, love matters. 💙💙 Sign up for my weekly newsletter (Tuesday Truths - link in bio) to be the first to know when our site is live so you can join the journey of hope and remind her how brave she really is. 💙💙 #thecolorblueandhope 📷: @joshandrachelphoto
Last week our family unexpectedly lost a very special person, my Uncle Joe who was like a father to me. I haven't fully processed how our family has been forever changed. One of the hardest realizations I've had to come to terms with during this difficult time is knowing that Baby Hart will never get to meet her Pop Pop. Over the last few days Baby Hart has made her presence known more than ever with kicks, punches and an enormous amount of heartburn. I like to think she's reassuring me that everything is going to be okay. It's been an emotional few days to say the least but seeing Baby Hart this morning made my day just a little brighter. Baby girl waved as if she were saying, "Hi mom! 👋🏻 I'm good in here!" She showed off her finger nibbling skills and we even caught a glimpse of a smile. She had an echocardiogram done and according to the doctor, her heart is picture perfect. Baby Hart, we can't wait to meet you. You may not get to meet your Pop Pop but we will make sure you know just how special he was to our family ♥️. . . . #22weeks#babynumber3#babygirl#rainbowbaby#miscarriage#miscarriageawareness#1in4#pregnancyafterloss#secondtrimester#dueindecember#decemberbaby#christmasbaby#officiallyoutnumbered#harttohearts#hartpartyof5
I've been struggling lately, but for some reason today has been particularly hard. 1 in 4 women experience pregnancy loss, I am 1 in 4. I'm beyond grateful that I have a healthy happy (most of the time) 3.5 year old son. But Sunday we should have been celebrating my second child's 2nd birthday, instead I'm left feeling empty, like I've failed, edgy, like im suffocating and so very alone. I'm not looking for sympathy-what do you say to someone in my situation anyway?- I just want women and families to know you aren't alone-I'm with you and so are 1 in 4. #tv_flowers
I would love to hear your experiences of starting medication for anxiety and/or depression. Its something that I've always put off (see my last blog post..link in bio) but more and more people seem to be suggesting them lately..