So today was less than perfect. I experienced tons of anxiety about my body and face. I used to hate summer because it meant showing my arms and legs. You wouldn't catch me dead in a swim suit, let alone a two piece. Being in such a tropical place I'm faced with those same insecurities, afraid to wear shorts cause my legs are jiggly and I have visable scars from being clumsy. Or my face cause it shows many acne scars, and afraid to cover them cause the makeup will melt and look like a greasy cakey mess. Which resulted in me being cooped up in my room reading, writing and doing yoga. Which wasn't awful, but it's definitely not what I plan to do tomorrow. I came to an important realization about my body. The ideal weight I'm aiming for is 140 and strong, and I need to stop punishing myself for not having my ideal body. When I weighed 247, I'd fantasy about how amazing life would be if I was 180. Which is where I'm at today. So I'm going to love this version of me, because eventually she will just be a memory of who I used to be. This goes out to anybody who struggles with self love. Because we are all so beautiful in our own uniqueness. 💓 Now I'm going to take a night dip in an infinity pool with my wonderful boyfriend. Wish me luck! #firsttimewearingabikini#selflove#befree#conqueranxiety#allbodiesarebeautiful#bodypositivity#goodlighting#gymsharksponsorme#vanfitfam#luxxdoll#luxxhealth#youtubesubscribers#transformationtuesday#fabfitfun#fabletics#juicingforweightloss#lovethejourneynottheprogress#lovethejourney
YET ANOTHER #anniesempties, been working on some of these for so long that this feels so satisfying! And I have opinions about this one. For those of you who don’t know, I do this to stay accountable about product usage and waste. I think I’m going to start tracking cost in the next one. Not pictured is the serving bowl full of makeup I’m gifting to friends. #moltonbrown and #loccitane shower gels in Rhubarb Rose and Almond, respectively. Both smell amazing and are something I get for free from @Nordstrom. Would never pay full price. #firstaidbeauty ultra repair cream is nice, but not as good as the #belif moisturizing bomb - I bought the full size in a gift set with my 20% off Sephora to save some $. I’ll start using up that one once I work through all my other samples. #skinlaundry night serum is nice, but almost as expensive as #sundayriley’s night oil, and the SL one doesn’t have retinol. I got it about a year ago in a #fabfitfun box but only started using it diligently back in August. Last is my least favorite hairspray in the world, free from Ulta: #sexyhair’s products usually suck, but it was free and I didn’t want to waste it. I just HATE the smell.
Just call me #influencer#callmemaybe#callmebasic#bestponcho#adorbs#dreamsdocometrue#nyc#sadball 🏐 pic cred @ashhess repost via @brosbeingbasic ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Ok, the winter @FabFitFun box is EVERYTHING 🙌🏼⛄️😍#fabfitfunpartner Dying over this cozy poncho, adorbs mug, all the full size products like Kate Somerville’s intensive exfoliating treatment and The Doucce eyeshadow pro palette, and so much more. Get yours for only $39.99 (😱😏) using code BASIC at checkout -- it’s the perfect gift for your friends, fam (mom will lurrrve this one), and your bad self. **fabfitfun.com** + promo code BASIC. #fabfitfun#happyholibaes