The feels when I realise I have become one of the fit girls I’ve always envied and never ever thought I could be.... Yeah I’m pretty excited! If I can go from zero exercise and binge eating my weight in food everyday (kinda not kidding with that) then so can you. My surgery helped me lose weight and control my eating but it DID NOT: 1. Get me off my ass every day and get me moving. 2. Commit to training sessions five days a week plus a personal training session weekly. 3. Push past the anxiety of changing trainers at eight months in. 4. Push past the mental blocks that had been built up that girls couldn’t lift heavy or be strong and shouldn’t be muscular. 5. Push myself every single day to give as much as I could to those workout sessions. Even when it was the last thing I felt like doing. 6. Control what I put in my mouth the other 23 hours of the day. Yes it limited the amount but it had nothing to do with the content. Don’t be fooled and think I took an easy way out and that this has been easy. It’s taken a lot of hard work, breakdowns and tantrums but through it all the one thought that has never crossed my mind is “I regret this”. I’ve wanted to give up, walk away from it all but what has stopped me is remembering how I was before and why I am doing this. To live the life I have always wanted. But the only person who could make that happen was me. Go out and live the life that makes you happy. Because life is waaay too short to be miserable!!
Today has been a long day. Only managed to drag myself out of bed at 3pm D: I was suppose to leave my house at freaking 10am. My life is a lie. I hope tomorrow is better ugrhhhhhhh help. I'VE GOT A FREAKING COMPETITION TO ATTEND FOR THE NEXT 4 DAYS. YELP. Being functional is so underated... Hang in there pals.
🙏 You can be great with words, and still fail to speak. You can feel something strongly, and still be so weak. You can be so aware, so in tune, on the beat And still fail to hear What rings clear Through the heat. 🌴🙏❤ Reflecting on the past few weeks teaching here and the next to come I can't help but marvel at the incredible opportunities and experiences yoga has opened me up to... Not just physically, but mentally too. Opening myself to the possibility of a life without anxiety was something that at one stage seemed laughable, and although I knew what was wrong it was one thing to acknowledge it - another ballgame altogether to actually DO something about it, and keep doing it every time it happens. If you're stuck in damaging thought patterns or beliefs of negative self-worth, I promise you - there IS an alternative. Follow what works. Follow it again. KEEP doing it. Trust it. It might not be yoga for you. But once you feel it - you'll know. 🙏❤🌴🌴 • • • #justkeepswimming#mentalhealth#yoga#bali#yogabali#baliyoga#yogaeverydamnday#mentalhealthawareness#anxiety#depression#root#rise#breath#urdhva#asana#reach#positive#grow
As I'm about to take a few days away from everything, I've taken some time to self-reflect and also think about how close it now is until my life-changing year. B & B's and hotels have been reaching out to me these last few days, offering me a place to stay during my walk and it's amazing to see the generosity of the UK public. I even have people picking me up and dropping me off! With 14 more days until it all begins, I need to take care of myself. I need to prepare my mind and body for what's ahead. 650 miles isn't going to be an easy distance to walk. 22 miles on average a day, there'll be days I want to quit. There'll be days where I'll be in agony. But this is part of the journey. I'll learn and I'll action. Want to help me out? The link below takes you to my donation page. Have some spare cash? Please donate and help me to start 2018 with a £10,000 donation to the charity I first volunteered with. https://mydonate.bt.com/fundraisers/johns650milewalk#.WgXv2wcsui8.twitter