Dear Vitiligo, Since you have come into my life I have always felt insecure because you make me different from everyone else. I am that I know the only one in the family who has vitiligo. I never understood why I had 2 colors of brown with white spots. Because of you I have always felt ugly, because of you I was ashamed of myself. I never wore slipper, short skirts and pants in the summer because I wanted to hide you. If I did wear it I always had a panty on while it was just super warm in the summer. Because of you, I believed that I will never find a man who can love me because I did not look like the others. People liked me in appearance, but I thought I was ugly by you. Vitiligo you made me different. I have been bullied by people, people looked at me strangely as if I were from another planet. People were far away from me by the pool and stared at me for an extremely long time while I waited in my turn at the slide. Swimming was my thing, always feeling wonderful and free by swimming. But because of you I suddenly did not do it for years, I did not like people always staring and making me feel like I was an alien. Then I met my first love the person seemed to accept me for who I was with vitiligo and all. He made me feel like he is the only man in this world that can love me with you. But that was a big lie. He is not the only man on earth who accepts me with me vitiligo. When I got my children everything changed. I find it so special that my own children have never wondered what I have. I told them all that and they admire me in a way that I do not even admire myself. My children are truly a gift from heaven, because they love you in a way that is unconditionally called love. In 2014 I saw Chantelle Brown-Young from Canadam on instagram I thought wowed what a beautiful woman her vitiigo is so beautiful. Then the whole world changed, on Instagram suddenly more and more people came across with vitiligo. What I liked about everyone who also has you, but still
So you’ve read 5 self help books spoken to your mom and your best friend then wrote the pros and cons of the situation but you still feel stuck. You’re still where you started. Were you really interested in creating a shift in your life, were you even ready to begin with? Looks like something has a hold on your smallest action but you can’t quite put a finger on why you’re stiff with fear. Do you think you’re ready to know what’s always tightening its grip on you?
While it’s only normal to celebrate success, one must not forget the past mistakes that he has encountered because these mistakes are vital to one’s success. Instead, he must learn from them to avoid committing the same ones.