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If you can relate repost tag the boys and use the hashtag #wdwsaves @whydontwemusic  @jackaverymusic  @jonahmarais @imzachherron @corbynbesson
What about the cookiess???!!! - - - - - - @jonahmarais @jackaverymusic @seaveydaniel @imzachherron @corbynbesson @whydontwemusic @ebenofficial @beautychickee @carolineregier #cute #hot #f4f #like4like #wdwsaves # daddy #ineedhelp
Holaaaaaaaa daddyyyyyyy!!!!! - - - - - @jonahmarais @jackaverymusic @seaveydaniel @imzachherron @corbynbesson @whydontwemusic @ebenofficial @beautychickee @carolineregier #cute #hot #f4f #like4like #wdwsaves # daddy #ineedhelp
Prt 1. Hi my name is anna... I had depression.... I recently found something I wrote when my dad first died... I am sharing this so you guys can speak up if you have depression... because I was to late! Dm me if you need anyone to talk to! Explaining my depression to my dad, dad my depression is a shapshifter. One day it's as small as a firmly in the palm of a bear. The next it's the bear! On those days I play dead until the bear leaves me alone. I call the bad days "the death days" dad says "try lighting candles" but when I see a candle I see the flesh of a church,the flicker of a flame,sparks of a memory younger than noon. I am standing beside his open casket. It is the moment I learn every person I ever come to know SOMEDAY DIE! Besides dad, I'm not afraid of the dark... that's part of the problem!  Dad says " I thought the problem was that you can't get out of bed" I CANT! Anxiety holds me a hostage inside of my house, inside of my head. Das says " where did anxiety come from?" Anxiety is the coin visiting from out of town that depression felt obligated to invite to the party! I am the party! Only I am a party I don't want to be at! Dad says "why don't you try going to actual parties! See your friends!" Sure I make plans, I make plans but I don't wanna go! I make plans because I know I should want to go! I know sometimes I would have wanted to go. It's just not that much fun having fun when you don't want to have fun! Dad, you see dad each night insomnia sweeps me up in his arms, dips me in the kitchen in the small glow of the stove-light! Insomnia has this romantic way of making the moon feel like perfect company dad says "try counting the reasons but my mind can only count reasons to stay awake! So I go for walks!but my stuttering kneecaps clank like silver spoons held in strong arms with loose wrists. They ring in my ears like clumsy church bells, reminding me I am sleepwalking on a ocean of happiness..... that I cannot baptize myself in. Dad says "happy
Prt 2. my happy is a high fever that will break dad says I am so good at making something out of nothing, ,and then flat out asks me if I am afraid of dying! No I am afraid of living! Mom,dad I AM LONELY! I think I learned that when Matt left how to turn the anger into lonely the lonely into busy. So when I say I've been super busy lately I've been falling asleep watching why don't we on youtube! To avoid confronting the empty side of my bed! They are the only thing that makes me happy! But when you take my phone away you take away my happiness,my support,my ONLY REASON TO STAY ALIVE!  I try to go out but my depression always drags me back to my bed,until my bones are the forgotten fossils of the skeleton sunken city! I am sorry,dad I was to late to tell you all this!I miss you! I love you! I know you,would say all of that to me! That's why I never told you... i wrote that.. if you need help,seek it! all it takes is 6 words! "I need help, I have depression" I know it might seem scary but it hurts the people who you love and who loves you!❤ dms are always opened #wdwsaves